Today.....

Today was supposed to be the date of our big ultrasound to find out if Baby B was a girl or a boy......it was really difficult trying to get through the day knowing that we should have been celebrating and sharing the big news with all of our family and friends and spoiling Baby B with lots of cute little things in pink or blue, yet instead, we continue to struggle with the pain and the reality that our baby is no longer here with us. It just isn't fair and I so wish that things were different.....this just wasn't the way it was supposed to be.